five of bones
sadness / worry / exhaustion //
my darlings, i don’t know how to not talk about how shitty this year has been. as with last week and the three of arrows, i looked at this card and went, “yeah, that’s about how it feels.”
and then i thought about a hank green video i watched recently, wherein he says, “i feel like when big things happen to a person, the whole person doesn’t come through. it’s a different you that comes out.”
this year has been so bad, so hard, for so many people i know, and the shit i’ve been going through has felt so much less dire than the shit others are going through, but the fact of the matter is i’ve still gone through a fair amount of shit in the past year, and i am a different person now, and i miss the person i was a year ago. i miss my old life, because now i feel like i am holding shards of bone in my hands, trying to make them whole again.
may this week be easier on us all.
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this week’s deck: the wooden tarot
this week’s gems: amethyst, quartz
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previously, in five of pentacles: 7/28/24