honestly, my darlings, i chose to use the ophidia rosa deck today so that i had the option of not really saying anything myself, just quoting the poetic line from the guide. but then out came the nine of swords and i thought: huh. yeah. that is a pretty accurate depiction of the way i feel inside: trying to flower, trying to bloom, while feeling utterly stuck, utterly trapped.
i am still grieving the loss of my old job (my old life), while trying to keep up with the demands of my new one, while also hating this system which necessitates me to have a “day job” at all, while acknowledging that my situation is so much easier to deal with than so many others. and none of that is even taking into account, say, national politics.
so here we are, in the muck. it’s shitty and hard and gross down here, but the thing about the muck is that it’s also the thing from which lotus flowers grow. we can’t escape suffering if we do not first suffer, you know?
anyway, here’s the line from the guide:
The future will shatter the entrapment of the present.
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this week’s deck: ophidia rosa tarot
this week’s gem: ruby fuchsite
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